Grace Hwang poured her life into her job as a mergers and acquisitions banker at J.P. Morgan. She loved her job. She loved pushing deals and the presence of power she felt flowing through her as she walked into the office on Park Avenue every morning.
She knew she was up for promotion and could feel herself moving through the fast track after a few short years as an assistant vice president. And although she didn't really have time for a social life, she did go out and get plastered as often as possible with her hard-charging co-workers and some of her friends from college back in Boston. Sometimes she woke up with strange men in her bed, but nobody she couldn't kick out by the time she had to get back to work.
Grace had a pretty good life. The only moments that really bothered her were the silent seconds when she would catch herself daydreaming about her father.
She didn't have any memory of her father. She had some pictures of him and her mother, holding her in their hands. She had kept his pictures in scrapbooks as a kid when her mother stacked them away. Her mom was a practical woman who wouldn't keep useless sentimental stuff around the house.
One morning, Grace had dream about her father. He was soft and warm, but didn't speak. He held her in his arms and rocked gently with her and her mother whose hardened, stern face had returned to the youthful charm she'd seen in pictures.
It was similar to dreams she'd had before, and she understood why she woke up with tears in her eyes, but she wished she didn't.
Grace woke her mother in the ungodly hours of the morning to call her and talk about the dream. Mrs. Hwang asked her to close her eyes and make a prayer with her:
Heavenly father, please help my Grace whose heart is burdened.
Open her heart to the spirit of your salvation and ease her pain.
Bless Grace so that she may seek your protection from the evils in life.
Let her seek your wisdom and mercy so that she may enter your kingdom.
Bring us together so that we may join her father in your house.
In Jesus' name we pray.
Amen.
She didn't really believe in it, but Grace gave her amen and wiped her face. She thanked her mother and jumped into the shower, where searing beads of water stripped her guilt and her weakness away into the sharper, cleaner, professional woman that she was more comfortable with.
Grace walked out the door a different person from the one who woke up fighting off tears. And she was ready take on another day.